Believes.....Better to belief!!!

I always concern on my appearance and outlook since that case of “Miss Catwalk”. I assume myself ugly because no guys chase after or even admire me during schooling time. I even blame my mom for giving birth to such an ugly girl(Hehe....what a silly blame!).

Jealousy appears in my soul when I discovered that there was a guy who chase after my younger sister during her 14 year old (while I got zero). The guy was her classmate. Both of them were class monitors. My sis was a capable girl. She was tough in doing everything. No wonder she was admired by the guy. Sorry to say that I started to have jealousy on my own sis. Each time when the phone rings, I shall pick up the call. Once I discovered that it was the guy who called, I straight away disconnected it. It’s rude. I admit. But, I know my sis won’t accept that guy or start any puppy love.

It was the first day of Chinese New Year. He called early in the morning to my house informing my sis that he is coming to give us a visit. I turned unhappy after that and get inside the room to cry. I was so stubborn that day and cry for not expecting his arrival. I know that I shouldn’t cry during CNY. Somehow, I just ignore.

He didn’t appear that day. Might have changed his mind, I guess. Phewh……

School holiday ends after few days. We went to school in the CNY mood. After we came back from school, my sis straight away cried and told mom an incident. According to her, the guy doesn’t go to school. He was injured during CNY. Surprisingly, he was hurt on the first day of CNY!!!!

He did come to our house that day. He boarded a bus of our housing area after calling my sis. He reached the bus stop near our house, and stepped out of the bus. All of a sudden, “Bong!” He was knocked down by a motorcycle. He hurt his ankle and broken few of his front teeth. Then, he was sent to the nearby clinic. OMG! How can all this happen? He really had the intention of giving us a visit that day. Poor boy. Why he never called us when he was injured, since our house was already so near? We know all this things only few days after.

I understand from my sis that there was a black mist which passes by when he stepped out from the bus. The sudden black out caused him unaware of the motorcycle which came from behind and knocked him down.

I was quiet. I know I had done a wrong thing. I should have followed the CNY tradition believes. We should have smile and with good hope during new year. Yet, I cried and was not expecting him to visit my house. How rude I am?

He recovered soon. My sis did not start any dating with him.

So SORRY…from the deep of my heart. I strongly believe the black mist was created just because of my cry and my negative thinking. It must be my creation. I learnt a lesson and follows the tradition believes after all. Better believe it!!